by Mary Priddy
For years I had such anger and unforgiveness but not at a person, it was at God. I felt He had left me many years before and that is why all the bad stuff had happened to me. I was so angry that my brother had died at such a young age and I was so Angry that my parents left me so many times.
This anger and unforgivenss separated me from God for many years. In these years of separation I was searching for that peace and joy I had once known with God.
I searched nonstop with drugs and men for this peace and joy and never found it. I lost myself to the drugs, while I was searching. I was like a race horse running around and around the same track but never to reach the finish line, which to me was that peace and joy.
Until one night I had reached my point of desperation for freedom from the drugs, that I swallowed my pride and cried out to the God of my childhood, the God I was so angry at. I just knew that He had forgotten me and that He would never answer me. But He did and He did in such a gently and loving way, It was like He reached down from Heaven and wrapped His loving Fatherly arms around me and just held me as I wept. I felt His love, at first it was strange, but then it engulfed me and I didn’t fight it but welcomed it. Gods love is everlasting, No matter how far in the depth of this worlds darkness you may be or no matter if you too, like me, was or is angry at God for whatever reason He still Loves you.
He will take all your anger, and all your hurt, and He will wrap you in His arms and just let you cry and cry.
Then He will release you to stand on your own once more, but He is not far away at all. He is standing nearby to catch if you stumble or to answer you if you call. That is the Amazing, unending, unconditional Love of our Father God! Our God is the God of Peace! The God of Love! The God of Joy!
The God of Restoration! And with him Nothing is ever impossible!