BY MELANIE KINKADE
Let me start by saying that God will catch you no matter how low you fall. His love for us has no bounds. We just have to accept it! I accepted Jesus when I was 14. I have never lost sight of whose I am. I have faltered and fallen, but God always lifts me back up.
When I was 20 I started a relationship with the man I thought I would spend my life with. After 9 ½ years of being lied to, I had my daughter. Through my daughter, God showed me I was on the wrong path. My daughter is a blessing from God in spite of my bad choices.
When my daughter was 2, I met the man I would marry. My husband and I got married 4 years after we started dating. We were not equally yoked in any way. This caused a lot of heartache.
While my husband was an excellent father to my children, he was sexually and emotionally abusive to me. I finally had the strength to walk away after 6 years of marriage. There was no resolving what was going on behind closed doors.
When I was 39 I rededicated my life to God. I accepted Jesus as my Lord, not just my Savior. A year later I became involved in the church I still attend. God brought me to a
place in my life where I lost a lot, but appreciated everything. I learned to be content with what I had and no longer spent time grieving what I didn’t.
At the age of 40, I had been unemployed for 2 years. I arrived at a point where I truly had to let go and let God. I took a step out on faith and was ready to start my own business. The very next day I received an offer of employment. I truly believe God was waiting for me to surrender.
It wasn’t until this year that I felt ready to venture into a relationship. I once again fell into a relationship that wasn’t equally yoked. Also once again I went against what I know God wants for my life. I gave into the wants of my flesh instead of being strong in the protection of the Lord.
I am thankful it only took 3 months to realize that I was once again on the wrong path.
The relationship fell apart and the friendship we had prior is horribly broken. I have fallen back into my sinful nature from time to time since then. A week ago, I felt convicted and made the choice once and for all to turn away from my actions.
Through my life I have survived many different abuses. I have been an addict and have survived that by the grace of God. I have survived a stroke with very little permanent damage. God’s grace throughout my life amazes me.
Now I would like to talk about what I have learned over the years. God has shown me so much and I want to encourage others with what I now know. Also, I want to make it clear that no one on this earth is perfect. That’s why God sent Jesus to us.
It has become crystal clear to me that God has blessed me with the gift of discernment.
I am able to hear the Holy Spirits voice regarding individuals and their actions. One of the hardest lessons for me to learn is that I need to always listen to that voice. Things go horribly wrong when I don’t.
A wise friend of mine recently taught me that any decision I make needs to fill me with peace. If I do not feel that peace, then I most likely am going against the will of God for me. If I look back over my life, there are glaring examples of this.
Another lesson I have learned is that if I let Him, God will use me to share his love. Through volunteering and sharing my testimony, I do just that. I don’t have a lot of money, but I have a heart filled with love for Jesus. I take every opportunity I can to
share that love.
The Lord has shown me that I am a work in progress until the day I die. I know that I will fall many more times before He takes me home to Him. When we sin, we need to be quick to repent and not continue in it. If you learn nothing else from me, please believe that living in our sinful nature leads to many kinds of death. We suffer a death of Spirit, emotion and sometimes a physical death.
My hope is that I can continue in God’s grace and help others to have hope in the face of darkness. Jesus came for us so that we may have a relationship with our Father.
For me, God is the only Father I have. My goal in sharing my testimony with you is to show you that none of us is perfect. No
matter how many times we fall, if we reach out He will pick us up and dust us off. If you let Him, He will use you or your situation to create something beautiful.
Thank you for taking the time to read my story. I pray you find peace and fulfillment through the Lord. If you let Him, He will truly show you a love that surpasses all understanding.
Be blessed my sisters!
A 3 rd lesson I have learned is that not everyone who claims to love God, actually does. As women, we need to guard ourselves against sheep in wolves clothing. Any man worthy of our love will lead us closer to God, not away from Him.